I know last night's entry probably doesn't make a whole lot of sense to people. I know that conversation with my mom doesn't look so upsetting...but it was. One minute my parents will tell me that I am doing just fine and that they don't want me to worry about getting a job right now. The next minute they're yelling at me for being so irresponsible because I don't have a job and am not conforming to society. I'm just sick and tired of playing there games. They've made it quite clear these past few weeks that I'm not all that wanted back home. They'd rather I just stay here.
Keith got an incredible e-mail from his dad today. The e-mail was basically his dad telling him what a wonderful person he is and how much he admires him. I read it and couldn't help but cry. That's all I've ever wanted from my parents... Whatever...maybe I should just go against everything I feel and conform to whatever it is my parents want me to be. They tell me to just be myself, but when I am myself they tell me to conform. I'll never know what they want from me. They've worn me down. I'm just too tired to fight anymore